FIVE

dress: c/o shein

ONE.  I love the tassles on this dress.  It feels like a t-shirt and is super comfortable and I can't wait for warm weather so I can wear it.  We've had so much rain and dreary weather, I am ready for summer!

TWO.  Monday was Chris' birthday.  I feel like his birthday often gets lost in the midst of the business and other celebrations in May and I feel like I failed a little with his birthday this year. Thankfully our anniversary is this weekend so hopefully I can make up for it!  We had a fun birthday dinner at his parents on Friday!

THREE.  Speaking of birthdays, it was also this cute guy's birthday on Sunday.  My nephew turned 8 and I can hardly believe it.  I love him more than words can say and am just so thankful he lives here now and I get to celebrate his special days in person.  I love you Travis James!

FOUR.  This is going to sound like someone is paying me to say this but they are not.  The Walmart by us now has FREE grocery pick up.  You can shop online (for everything that is in the grocery store itself - produce, meat, bread, sandwhich bags, everything!) and they get it all together for you.  You pick a time slot and use the app to tell them you are on your way and they load your car with all your things when you get there.  I didn't even wait two minutes!  FOR FREE.  My mind is blown and I almost hugged the guy that loaded up my car.  And then I went to Starbucks to celebrate the easiest grocery shopping ever.  I will be doing this every week.  If you use this code you and I can both get $10 off our order!  Seriously such an amazing service!

FIVE.  We had family pictures last night.  Technically Isaac's one year pictures but we waited until it was nice outside.  Unfortunately it was still pretty cold and we did it at sunset, which is passed Isaac's bedtime so he was not his normal happy self and would not stay still.  I was a little disappointed, but I know our photographer is amazing so I am sure she got some good ones and I can not wait to see them.  (This dress is from Old Navy and I love it!) 

Summer staple

dress: c/o shein    sneakers & flats: target 
I got this dress last week and I love it.  It's comfy, the perfect length and super cute.  I think it looks good with dressier flats, sneakers, or I'm sure with wedges too.  This last weekend we went to an indoor water park and I wore it as a swimsuit coverup, which I am sure I will do again this summer!  It worked perfectly.  Last summer I hardly ever wore dresses because I was nursing Isaac so often.  While I'm still nursing him, it is so much less and rarely when we are out, so I'm looking forward to wearing dresses again, as they used to be all I wore in the summer.  I think it'd be adorable with a jean jacket or a vest too - so many options and it's only $10!!

Things I've Recently bought

sweatshirt: AE    jeans: old navy    booties: Nordstrom Rack 
I'm always a fan of online shopping, but most of the time the items stay in my cart until days later when I just close the tab and start over the next night.  But when Chris is out of town it's a little more dangerous, because I'm on my computer more at night, plus I feel like I've earned some rewards for solo parenting for days.  And it is only fair since he's getting all these fancy meals and I'm eating mac and cheese, with the occasional Jimmy Johns splurge.  
So I bought a few things last week and got them in the mail and thought I'd share.  The last year or so have ordered a few things from Aerie/American Eagle and love them.  They have such cute stuff, and often pretty cheap.  
This sweatshirt was $16 and I love it.  It's so comfy and cute and I think it'd look cute with shorts too in the summer.   I also bought this cute ruffle tee and like it, but need to see if I can exchange it for a different size. It's super soft and long enough to wear with leggings.  I got this bralette too.  I have two others from Aerie and love them and want to wear them all the time!  I'm still nursing Isaac quite often and they are really easy to move to the side to nurse.  Thankfully they are cheap enough, as I'm sure I'm stretching them out and will want a few new ones once I'm done nursing.  
These shoes are sold out now, but I got them in a light pink and they were only $15! I've wanted a pair like it for awhile and was super excited to find these! 

And these weren't while Chris was gone, but I found these sunglasses at Discovery for $4 and this hat from Walmart, also for $4.  And they both were worn a lot to cover greasy hair and tired eyes while he was gone.  Or always, because let's be honest, my eyes are often tired and my hair in need of a hat. I want to go back and get it in another color!
What's something you've recently bought and loved??

Overwears

I've been wanting a pair of overalls for quite awhile, but couldn't find a pair that was under $50 and I did not want to spend that much.  I found these online from TJMaxx for only $25 and when you sign up for their emails you get free shipping on your first order.  I actually found another pair too that I ordered but returned them because they didn't fit right.  These are really stretchy and comfy (a little too tight for my liking in the butt, but not enough to not keep them!).  I've had them for a few weeks, but have only worn them out once because I keep being nervous I look like I'm trying to dress like a three year old.  
Addi has a pair of overalls and I will definitely make sure to not wear mine the same day as hers, otherwise my fear would be true.  She calls them "overwears" and I have no intention of correcting her anytime soon. 
(They don't have the exact pair online anymore but they have quite a few that are cute here!) 

Mama update

When Addi was Isaac's age I was about to run a marathon.  I was running four times a week, for hours.  I was in shape, felt strong and had time to be alone and work on something that was just me. Not related to being a mom or compared to anyone else.  And it was so good for me.  I am having a hard time not comparing that phase of life to this one.  I've been doing so much better with working out regularly, doing workout videos at least four times a week, usually five.  I feel like I'm slowly getting stronger, but I can't compare it to the shape I was in when I ran a marathon.  I miss that phase of life and having that huge goal that I was working for.  
I'm feeling ready to be done nursing Isaac, but feel like we're not even close to weaning.  He nurses a few times a day, and at least once during the night, often more and has zero interest in milk.  I nursed Addi till 22 months and it worked for us, but just feel ready to be done and am hoping to do it by summer.  Part of me feels sad about that phase being over, but I am more than ready to have a little more freedom, be done with nursing bras and clothes and to hopefully sleep more at night.  I got pregnant two months after Addilyn was done nursing so I have been pregnant or nursing for over four years.  
I am 99% sure we do not want more kids.  Chris wants to get a vasectomy and I am just about there, but the idea of it being so final is conflicting to me.  It seems weird to pay for a procedure to not get pregnant, when we worked so hard to get pregnant.  But the idea of a third kid makes me want to panic.  I want the newborn stage again and the excitement that comes with a new baby, but I also can not imagine being pregnant again or actually parenting a third child! 
I am in a spiritual rut and need to work on it.  I have to figure out how to carve out time in my day to read the Bible and pray and work on my relationship with God.  I miss having a community with adults to talk about what God is teaching us and share what we're struggling with. If it weren't for texting one or two friends with how I'm doing I would feel like I just about completely lacking adult conversations on any kind of deep level and I miss that.  
I want to go back to making a few goals to work on for the week that are about me and not being a mom.  Working out goals, doing something nice for a friend, reading a few chapters of a book, etc.  I think that will make me feel happy and who doesn't feel accomplished checking things off a list? 
Most of these things make me feel like I'm in limbo, which isn't a place I love being.  I know all of this is a season - getting back in shape after kids, having deep community with little kids, readjusting my schedule and priorities for things that are important.   So I'm just working on giving myself grace in those areas, but stretching myself to work on them and then knowing when to be content with where I am.