10 more to go!

10 more weeks to go!  That sounds both incredibly close and really far away.  To think of 10 weeks left to feel ready for a baby, to cherish the time as a family of three and to enjoy the routine and predictability of our life right now does not sound like enough.  But to think of 10 more weeks of being pregnant, my belly stretching and waiting to meet our sweet baby boy sounds like a lot!  
After Thanksgiving I felt really crampy and achy, which made me really anxious.  I think it was a combination of not drinking enough water and just moving a lot more from one thing to the next.  I was a little anxious for the same thing to happen around Christmas, but I made sure to drink a ton of water, and we actually had a more lower key Christmas than normal and were home more than planned which was really nice.  It's crazy to think that next year we'll have a nine month old at Christmas!  
I'm feeling very pregnant.  It's hard to put on my boots or pick things up, or turn over in bed.  I get a little nervous thinking about nine more weeks of a growing belly!  Some nights I sleep pretty decently, meaning I only get up to pee once or twice and fall asleep relatively fast.  Others it takes me forever to fall asleep and I'm up six or more times.  
I debated writing this because well, it's disturbing and personal.  But I can't pretend it isn't happening. I won't go into detail but if you're interested read this and think about a bad case of it.  Or don't.  That is what is going on and it's terribly uncomfortable and disgusting.  And the only remedy is ice often and keep my feet up.  So if you come to my house and Addi grabs you an ice pack and puts in by your crotch don't be offended. That's a normal scene around here.  
I know I have time but I'm starting to get anxious about the logistics of labor.  When it will be, what it will look like, what my recovery will be like.  I'm just trying hard to not think too much about it because I know I can't control any of it.  I am a little more anxious as I worry about Addi, how she'll do while we're gone and what that will look like depending on the time of day when it happens.  I'm feeling much more emotional lately and lots of things can make me cry.  Happy tears, anxious tears, tired tears.  They're all over the place!  
I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the reality that a newborn will be here in ten weeks. I can't wait to meet him and see what he looks like, and hold and snuggle him.  It still amazes me that I'm pregnant and that we will be a family of four soon!