I'm disappointed in that fact that it's taken me awhile but I am finally working on being disciplined in having consistent quiet times. As one of my new years resolutions, I've failed the last few months. My intentions were there but putting into practice was a struggle. I've been praying for a stronger desire to be in the Word and grow in my relationship with God, and the last few weeks I am making it a priority throughout the week.
Sometimes I think it takes going through the motions even if the desire isn't there. It's like asking for God to give you wisdom without reading His word, which is filled with wisdom. Asking God for a desire to know Him, without doing anything about it. But I'm ready to do something about it.
I've tried to spent the first part of Addi's morning nap reading my Bible, and journaling. Something I used to do often but haven't for way too long. I love writing out a verse and meditating on the words and meaning, while I draw it out. Praying how God can use that truth in my life.
I think one of the biggest areas God is teaching me is to work on my role as a wife, while I'm consumed with my role as a mom. I've been trying to be more intentional about getting together with friends from church and having more meaningful discussions (as much as possible with little babies around). We decided to start reading this devotional and do our best to hold each other accountable. I'm excited about this study and something to help me stay consistent in reading.
I think God is also working on my issues with worry and anxiety. (Old news, I know). Whether it's anxiety over sleep (mine or Addilyn's), over traveling with Addilyn, Chris being gone, worry about the future when it comes to my teaching or the stability over Chris' job, or relationships and friendships. I know I will probably always struggle with anxiety but I don't want to give it to that and want to work on it.
I like resolutions because it's a time to examine goals and desires for the new year, but I'm guilty of forgetting about them shortly after. But I'm ready to reevaluate and work harder. Have you stuck to any resolutions? Ready to reevaluate some of your goals? Tell me!
