The real stuff

I try to have at least one true post with real content on my blog a week.  Not that I force myself to think of something honest and more heartfelt, but it's nice to sit down and right a post with meaning somewhat regularly.  I used to feel the most self conscious of these types of posts, but lately its the other way around.  While I've never been super confidence in my appearance, outfits, and photos before, I definitely felt more confidence before I got pregnant. When I do get dressed and take pictures these days they are often rushed and I often second guess what I'm wearing or how comfortable and confident I feel.  I'm sure I'll write a post on this some day soon, but I've been realizing the value I used to put on clothes, my appearance and how I felt about myself physically.  
I've been thinking a lot lately about how I use my time and where my priorities are.  A lot thanks to reading the book seven, although not finished, it's definitely challenging me to do a lot of thinking.  I also am really needing a deeper relationship with the Lord and wanting to make that a priority when I get free time.  
I've spent a lot less time on my computer these last two weeks.  Less emailing, blog reading, editing pictures.  And I've really enjoyed it.  I've made a few crafts, read some, worked out more and just sat more.  I have been feeling convicted as to how much time I spend on my computer and what my life would look like if I didn't have one.  
A few weeks ago I made a new friend at church.  I'm not good at making new friends, but I want to have more friendships with woman at church and want Addilyn to grow up knowing others at church too.  I got invited to go to an if gathering brunch last Sunday and it was such a blessing to sit around with four other woman and have some honest conversations about friendship, what hinders us from putting ourselves out there and what we want out of relationships.  It fired me up to put myself out there more and am excited for new friendships.  
My grandma passed away two weeks ago and her funeral is this weekend.  Sadly it's in California and I don't get to be there.  My grandma was probably the happiest older woman you'd ever meet.  She was gentle, kind and really funny.  I don't think it's really hit me yet that she is no longer around.  It's hard to watch your parents lose their parents, and Chris and I have had to do that five times in the last year and half.  
I truly appreciate those that read my blog and leave comments.  I feel embarrassed sometimes at how much it makes my day and wish I had more time to respond to emails and read other blogs.  I do miss the many connections I had with more bloggers, but know that this season of life is hard to make that happen.  But am so thankful for all of you for sticking around! 
Hope you have a great weekend.