25 and 26 weeks

I feel like time is going very fast these days!  As much as I'm looking forward to not being pregnant, I am getting a little more nervous as time gets closer to our baby boy being here.  I feel anxious about what our days will look like, how Addilyn will do with a new baby and how I'll survive with no sleep for a long time!  I cannot wait to meet our sweet boy and am so so grateful he is on his way, but I am definitely feeling more nerves these days about how our transition will go.  I've been enjoying Addilyn a ton lately and her personality is just becoming so funny and enjoyable.  I get nervous thinking about not being able to give her as much attention and how I'm sure she'll struggle with the transition.  
I'm feeling big!  I am starting to have a hard time bending over or sitting with Addi and playing.  The other afternoon we were playing for about an hour and half of chase, dancing and playing around on the floor and I was so tired after.  It makes me wonder how the next 14 weeks will go!  Chris was out of town last weekend and like normally when he's gone, I slept quite poorly.  Thankfully this last week has been a little better with sleep.  It is hard for me to get comfortable and sleep more than two hours straight without waking up, most nights.  
I've been doing a really good job working out the last few weeks.  About four or five times a week I've done a workout video.  Either a modified Fitness Blender video, ones I've found on You Tube, or a maternity one on Beach Body on demand.  I feel good when I do them, and hope that it helps my recovery and ability to get back in shape after the baby is here.  (Not making a difference in weight gain - that just keeps on coming!) On Thanksgiving I did a 5K Turkey Trot with my sister and mom.  We did it last year, but walked this year! I've always thought it'd be fun to do a race when you're pregnant and someday tell our baby that he did a 5K. :)

I feel baby boy move all the time.  A few times I can see my belly shake from the outside and it still surprises me.  I remember near the end when it gets so clear that there's a hand or foot moving across your belly and I'm sure we'll get there soon!  It amazes me that he's really in there growing and moving all around.  
While I may be feeling lots of nerves these last two weeks, I am beyond excited to hold our sweet baby and have him join our family.  14 more weeks baby boy! 
More about this cozy cardigan:

cardigan: c/o shein   top: old navy 

Blanket? Poncho? Who cares.

poncho: c/o shein   leggings: gap  boots: dsw 

This weekend when I came out wearing this, Chris literally thought I was just wearing a blanket. And I don't blame him.  It looks and feels just like a big blanket and I love it.  Perfect for Winter, perfect for a big pregnant belly and I want to wear it all the time.   

Truths and Thoughts

shirt: old navy   dress: forever 21   flats: kohls
The other day Chris was talking about how he was wishing he could call his grandpa and tell him about his new business and our baby.  This last year and half we lost all four of our grandpas.  It's sad for me to think about how we didn't get to tell them we're pregnant and our daughter won't met her great grandpas. I also feel sad that my grandpa isn't here to pray for my baby daily, like he prayed for us to get pregnant.  

In the last week or so more people in my life have found my blog.  And my first response to that is to feel embarrassed and self conscious.   It was over a year before anyone besides my family and a few friends knew I had a blog.  And I'm thankful for that.  It was so nice to not second guess what I wrote or worry about what others may think.  I think this was especially true when it came to posting details about our infertility journey.  Writing things for people you don't see is much easier.  With that being said, I should probably get over it and not worry what others may think but that's easier said than done! 

I've had a hard time with the weight I've gained during this pregnancy and all the changes my body is going through.  Before getting pregnant I worked out every day and with being on bed rest for the most of the first trimester and then not being able to work out the same, it's been hard to feel like I have no control over what is happening with my body.  I'm afraid of gaining too much weight and fear not being able to get back in shape.  And then all these feelings make me feel selfish and ungrateful that I am pregnant and able to carry this baby. 

I always thought Chris would be an amazing dad.  When we first starting trying to get pregnant he was really excited, but I think the waiting we did and what we went through to get pregnant has made him more excited and more ready to be a dad.  The other day he told me that throughout the day he thinks about meeting our daughter and can't wait to hold her.  He asks me every time I'm laying down if she's moving and wants to feel her.  He prayers for her every night and it's so clear that he is already in love with our baby. I have no doubt in my mind that he is going to be the best dad and I'm so thankful for him.  


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The greatest blessing

 

skirt: target     cardigan: loft    necklace: groopdealz 

There are so many things I am thankful for.  My husband, my family, our house, my job, this precious baby girl that I will get to met in July. 
These things are amazing blessings that God has given me.  But without a doubt the thing that I am most thankful for, and often take for granted, is that God sent His perfect Son to pay the price for my sins so that I could spend eternity with Him.  
Reminded on this day of the price He paid for my sins and praising God for the greatest gift I could be given.

You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins. He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. (2 Colossians 2:13-14)
Happy Easter!
He is Risen.  He is Risen indeed.