What kind of parent am I?

Sometimes I feel like motherhood makes me waver between extremes.  Days I feel confident and days I feel overwhelmed.  Days I feel like Addilyn is the happiest baby and days I feel like she is miss crabby.  Days we are right on schedule with naps and eating and days we're all over the place.  My sister reminds me constantly that motherhood will forever be unpredictable and that I'd save myself a lot of energy accepting that sooner rather than later.  I think that will forever be a work in progress for me. 
I read a lot about different types of parenting and I find myself wavering between the extremes.  I'll read something about attachment parenting.   Babies are babies for only a short time.   Babies don't know how and shouldn't be expected to self soothe.  Babies should not be alone crying in their cribs for any amount of time.  Give her all the cuddles and snuggles that she needs.  
Yes. Yes. and yes. 

I tell myself that I'd be okay if Addilyn slept in our bed until she was ready to sleep on her own.  That she can take naps on me as long as she "needs" to.  That she'll learn independence when she's older. 
Then I read things that are the opposite.  It's so crucial to teach babies how to soothe themselves and put themselves back to sleep.  Sleep training might make for a tough week but it will be so worth it.  Babies cry and that is just part of being a baby.  Yes. Yes and yes. 
I have moments where I need time to myself.  I love when she takes a good nap in her crib.  I love when she wakes up for the day in her crib and not next to me.  I like my space when I sleep at night. 
It all depends on the day.  Sometimes I'm convinced it's time to let Addilyn cry more.  To figure out how to sleep through the night.  That she needs to learn how to put herself back to sleep when she wakes up.  That she should be napping every time in her crib. 
Then I have days where I don't care if we end up bedsharing until she's three because I hate the idea of her being in bed crying alone.  That I will hold her for naps as long as I want to.  
Sometimes I wonder if you can be both.  If I can hold her for some naps but teach her to sleep on her own for most of her naps.  If she will learn to sleep through the night with time and I should relax and stop trying to force her to do it now.   
Parenting is a tricky thing.  Making decisions about what is best for your baby is hard.  And no one can make that decision but me.  And that feels like a lot of pressure to me sometimes.  Each day is different and each day I'm faced with what kind of mom I want to be.  
When it comes down to it I want to be a mom that does whatever I think is best for Addilyn and best for our family.  I want to start each day reminding myself that being a mom is unpredictable.  And that yesterday she may have gone down for a nap with no problems but today for no reason at all she won't take a nap.  And I want to be okay with that.  I am learning to stop being obsessive and attempting to let things go and not over analyze everything.  I don't have to define myself by what kind of parent I am but be confident that I am doing that best that I can and that whatever ways I choose, Addilyn will be just fine and so will I.