Friendships used to be a big struggle for me and a major area of insecurity. It took me a really long time to feel like I had solid friendships. A year ago this month I met my now closest friend. I had seen a picture of her and her daughter on our photographers website and recognized her from our church. Even though Chris and I had been going to our church for years, we only had close friends from our small group, and didn't know many other people in our big church. I remember thinking once I had babies it'd be easier to make friends because you'd at least have your kids to talk about. But initiating something with a total stranger is not something that comes easy to me. But I messaged Meredith, we set up a playdate and right away knew I wanted her to be my friend.
Since then we text a million times a week, get together with our girls often, ask for prayer for each other, occasionally get to eat dinner and drink wine together, brave errands with toddlers, and she's become my best friend. I'm so thankful for her and think about how much I'd be missing out if I didn't send her a message on facebook. The other day I saw someone's post on facebook about how her and her lifelong best friend both got to announce their daughters were pregnant at the same time and that now they get to be grandmas together. I immediately thought this is going to be me and Meredith. I pray we get to be friends now until we're grandmas together.
I'm in a better place spiritually, in a better place as a mom and for sure happier because she's in my life. It reminded me of my goal this year to be brave. I wonder what other opportunities or friendships I am missing out on because I let my insecurities get in the way.
I love you Meredith and Eleanor and I am so thankful you are in mine and Addilyn's life!