In the hopes of improving my attitude, I started thinking of the things that I am grateful for through this situation and how God has used this trial. Finding joy in times of trials sometimes takes some searching! But I soon thought of many things, and I'm glad those we're all in my mind as I have needed to think of them often these last few days.
1. Our marriage - I'm reminded all the time throughout this year how lucky I am to be married to Chris. He has been understanding, sympathetic and encouraging through all of this. We've become closer and our marriage is stronger. I know that this will make us better parents when we do have kids.
2. Insurance - I can't imagine the burden I'd feel if we didn't have insurance. My insurance through work is wonderful and I don't how we could do this, without it.
3. My family & friends - I feel blessed to be surrounded by people who love me, pray for me and listen to me. Sometimes I feel like I am a broken record because for the last year I've been dealing with and struggling with the same thing. I appreciate the constant reassurance that they always want to hear how I'm doing and how I feel.
4. Patience - While this is something I'm definitely still learning, God is teaching me to wait patiently for His perfect timing. I remember in high school my youth pastor's wife would always tell me not to pray for patience because God would surely teach it to me! While I don't recall praying specifically for patience before all this, I think it was time that I started learning it.
I made this painting awhile ago and look at it every morning in my bathroom.
It is a great reminder to be joyful and thankful for all the things God has given me.
I read this verse today and I love the comfort that comes with it.
Psalm 61:2 From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed.
Lead me to the towering rock of safety.
My hear is overwhelmed, but I know God is good and has a perfect plan for us.