I find myself struggling with finding a schedule and routine. I feel like as the three month mark approaches I know that Addilyn is capable of being on more of a feeding and sleeping routine. We've made some progress with a little nap on her own here and there but nothing is close to consistent.
I struggle because I long for time hands free to get things done. I want time to do a workout video or unload the dishwasher without narrating play by play what I'm doing and running back and forth to her bouncy seat to make sure she's entertained. I'd love to sit and drink my coffee on my own or have some time to blog during the day.
BUT I also want to snuggle my baby. I want her to sleep on my chest while I watch the Today show. I want to soak up these moments as I know they will pass so quickly. I want to rest while she sleeps on me. I want to know that I took advantage of having one baby and no one else to take care of during the day.
So where is the balance? I don't know.
Someday we will be on a schedule. Someday she'll take naps in her crib. But today is not that day. We are choosing the snuggles over the hands free coffee drinking moment. I'm choosing to continue to try naps but to try not stress out when it doesn't work. And maybe tomorrow will be an attempt at a hands free nap. But not today.