10 more to go!

10 more weeks to go!  That sounds both incredibly close and really far away.  To think of 10 weeks left to feel ready for a baby, to cherish the time as a family of three and to enjoy the routine and predictability of our life right now does not sound like enough.  But to think of 10 more weeks of being pregnant, my belly stretching and waiting to meet our sweet baby boy sounds like a lot!  
After Thanksgiving I felt really crampy and achy, which made me really anxious.  I think it was a combination of not drinking enough water and just moving a lot more from one thing to the next.  I was a little anxious for the same thing to happen around Christmas, but I made sure to drink a ton of water, and we actually had a more lower key Christmas than normal and were home more than planned which was really nice.  It's crazy to think that next year we'll have a nine month old at Christmas!  
I'm feeling very pregnant.  It's hard to put on my boots or pick things up, or turn over in bed.  I get a little nervous thinking about nine more weeks of a growing belly!  Some nights I sleep pretty decently, meaning I only get up to pee once or twice and fall asleep relatively fast.  Others it takes me forever to fall asleep and I'm up six or more times.  
I debated writing this because well, it's disturbing and personal.  But I can't pretend it isn't happening. I won't go into detail but if you're interested read this and think about a bad case of it.  Or don't.  That is what is going on and it's terribly uncomfortable and disgusting.  And the only remedy is ice often and keep my feet up.  So if you come to my house and Addi grabs you an ice pack and puts in by your crotch don't be offended. That's a normal scene around here.  
I know I have time but I'm starting to get anxious about the logistics of labor.  When it will be, what it will look like, what my recovery will be like.  I'm just trying hard to not think too much about it because I know I can't control any of it.  I am a little more anxious as I worry about Addi, how she'll do while we're gone and what that will look like depending on the time of day when it happens.  I'm feeling much more emotional lately and lots of things can make me cry.  Happy tears, anxious tears, tired tears.  They're all over the place!  
I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the reality that a newborn will be here in ten weeks. I can't wait to meet him and see what he looks like, and hold and snuggle him.  It still amazes me that I'm pregnant and that we will be a family of four soon! 

Room to grow

 dress: c/o shein    leggings: gap   boots: zulily   scarf: made by my sister in law

I'm pretty sure this dress will last me until the last week of my pregnancy, as least I sure hope so! It is so flowy and has tons of room for my belly to grow!  And you should be a tiny bit impressed because I even got out my iron to take care of the wrinkles, but clearly forgot about the sleeves.  Baby steps, right?  

I can't believe I am almost to 30 weeks and that Christmas is a few days away.  Time is going too quickly, and while I can't wait to meet this baby (and not be pregnant anymore) I wouldn't mind for this week to go nice and slow!

Dear Lauren,

tee, necklace and flip flops: old navy      pants: target

Besides my pants, everything I am wearing is from Old Navy.  I really wish I could find away for them to pay me to advertise their clothes.  

These pants are extremely comfortable but there is a major problem in that they have to tie under my belly and I felt like they were going to fall down all day long.  

Today is this sweet boy's 4th birthday.  I can't believe it was four years ago I heard his little cry on the phone right after he was born, and anxiously awaited until I could meet him a few weeks later.  I remember feeling like I couldn't imagine loving him any more, and I still feel the same way. 
You have done such an amazing job raising a tender, compassionate, smart and adorable little boy Lauren! I'm so thankful to have you as an example as I enter motherhood.  
Happy birthday to the sweetest, funniest and cutest little boy I know.  I love you more than you know Travis James!

Speaking of Travis, the other night he prayed "Thank you for the baby in Katie's belly and for the baby in Chris' belly.  We love their family."  
So while he really is smart, maybe you need to remind him only girls can have babies. 
I love you Lauren and am so happy I get to see you in a week.  

Numbers

 
dress: target     leggings:old navy    shoes: kohls

FOUR: the number of nights until my mom's open heart surgery.  Praying for God's protection during her surgery and a constant reminder of His peace and comfort that is stronger than any fear and anxiety.  
THREE: the number of times I've cried this last week.  
ONE HUNDRED: the amount of money I'd give someone to go to the dentist for me tomorrow. 
TEN: the number of weeks left until my due date!
TWENTY: the number of school days left before summer break.  
FIVE: the average number of times I get up to go the bathroom in the middle of the night these days. 

THIRTY ONE:  the age that Chris turned on his birthday today.  Happy birthday to my best friend! I couldn't feel luckier to be married to you!