I've always been a sensitive person and have a hard time not over thinking things. As I've grown older I have become more confident but still find myself with plenty of insecurities.
In the last few weeks I feel as though my sensitivities and insecurities have been increased. Someone can say something that should not come across offensive and I've cried. Something can happen at work that is nothing to get stressed about and I feel inadequate or overwhelmed.
I find myself over thinking things or feeling insecure about something I may have said or worrying more about how people perceive me.
I'm sure you can chalk some of this up to being pregnant and all the changes that are happening physically, emotionally, thinking about our future, etc.
But I have to say one downfall of having a blog, pregnant or not, as been the extra insecurities or over thinking that I do now. There are many times after I post something, ranging from serious to even funny (mostly because it is probably only funny to me and my sister) that I wonder if I should have written that differently, posted that picture, think about what others will think and worry about how others may view me.
Lately with lots of talk on other blogs about how people run their blogs, post outfits, handle sponsors, all that - it is starting to stress me out! I hadn't worried too much in the past about these things and am finding myself getting overwhelmed with them. I'm not sure if it is the extra pregnancy hormones and emotions or just that I've had a blog long enough now it's all crossing my mind.
Whatever it is I am not a fan. I need to remind myself that I am writing about, wearing and sharing what I want to, what is a reflection of me and I just need to be confident in who I am. I am working on finding a balance between caring about what I write and put out there, but not letting it consume too much of my thoughts and time.
So far this blog has been fun for me, is a source of encouragement, and something I really enjoy and I want to keep it that way. So here's to continually working on throwing away insecurities and working on finding balance.
And yes I did take a picture in the snow today. I am pretending that it isn't snowing at the end of March.