I've been thinking a lot lately about this blog. Let me first say that it is far from my intention in writing this, to get you to comment and say how much you love reading my blog or would be sad if I quit. While I do appreciate those comments (who wouldn't?) I am merely writing out my current thoughts on my blog and perhaps changing some of my goals and priorities.
I feel this need to post every day during the week. That if I don't I'll lose readers, won't be successful and will miss out on opportunities. But the truth is, I feel like that's already happening. My pageviews have been much lower, I've had much fewer opportunities to work with companies and overall have not felt the same positive feedback in general. Yet I'm still putting a lot of time into blogging and it's made me reevaluate why I blog. It started as a hobby that I expected to turn into nothing more. It's stayed a hobby, but also became a place where I made good friends, processed a lot of hard things, got to review some sweet clothes and products and even made some money.
Right now I've felt like it's this all or nothing thing. That I need to fully commit to blogging and do it everyday, put energy and time into it or not do it at all. That sometimes seems to be a pattern that occasionally shows up in my life. All or nothing.
I want to get in shape. It's been almost two years since I've run. How about sign up for a marathon?
I need to eat healthier and eat less sweets. How about not eat any desserts for a month?
But I know it doesn't need to be that way. I could use a good dose of moderation in many areas of my life. And I think that blogging is one area. I think it's time to start shifting my goals for my blog so that I feel like I'm making worthwhile choices with my time, rather than working on something that isn't currently fulfilling. I often work on my blog during Addilyn's nap time or in the evening, and I've been choosing to sit out on my deck reading, working on a craft, fixing up my basement, working on Addilyn's baby book or actually pay full attention to a show Chris and I are watching. And turns out those things are currently more fulfilling.
Blogging has been so good for me and I know there are still so many benefits. I'm not sure I would've kept up with monthly letters to Addilyn if it weren't for blogging. It gives me a chance to sit down, think about and write out what I'm learning and how God is growing me. And on a more superficial level, encourages me to wear real clothes a few times a week. I want these things to still be true, but maybe without the pressure I put on myself to do it daily.
So I'm planning on spending less time on my computer, still writing posts during the week, just not every day, and enjoying the free "me" time I have, doing other things that today make me happier.