Want to know how to make your pregnancy self esteem go completely downhill?
Start looking up and comparing your 17 week baby bump or any week bump to someone else's. Or read about how much weight others have or really haven't gained by this point. Because somehow I thought it would be a good idea or help me feel better about this awkward pregnancy stage.
Well big lesson learned.
And I feel a little embarrassed to admit this but here is the ugly truth. I felt jealous and starting wishing that I had this cute, hard little bump rather than feeling like I just look like I gained ten pounds of awkwardness.
I read this pregnant person's blog, who was about as far along as I was, and she was excited and celebrating each pound gained. In all honesty I wanted to ask her really? Maybe that's because you're a size zero and every pound is placed into a cute little bump on your belly.
And then it was like this slap in the face. When I realized that I was wishing for something completely superficial, when I have a healthy baby growing inside of me. A baby that I would do anything for, carry any weight or look however I needed to if it meant he or she would be mine.
So here's to not letting comparisons get in the way of the happiness and joy I have for this baby. And to knowing that every mama, belly, baby is different. Probably a good lesson to learn now and try to hold on to throughout this pregnancy and then even after too, as I'm pretty sure that is something all moms and moms-to-be deal with.